Sometimes it Takes Cookies

Sometimes, I am in the place to blog and write a lot and other times I am not.  I must admit that it has been a big struggle for me over this past winter to share my projects and my reflections here or anywhere.  So much has happened and so much has changed that in many cases, I don’t even know where I stand on certain topics.

When we moved, we left a house vacant behind us.  Despite the fact that we didn’t live there, we still had to pay the mortgage on the place, and as of this month, it is has been on the market for 10 months.  It has been a long journey, but it’s been VERY stressful.  Jared and I have had many conversations about our position on the house and what to do.  Luckily, we’ve had an offer on the house, and it looks like it will close this week!

Additionally, though we have a pretty clear understanding where our projects are headed, things don’t always go as desired, ESPECIALLY during an unexpectedly long winter.  The winter has dragged on and on and with it the problems have perpetuated.  It has been hard for me at times to accept and assimilate where things went wrong, and it’s not always to share because it often shows my own beginner oversights, not something I’m proud of.  Though I have been around farming and livestock my entire life, that doesn’t mean that I know everything or even anything, nope, not by a long shot.  Ask my sister, she gets several phone calls a day with requests for advice.

And so, today, in the height of frustration about our vacant house, a pile of laundry, dishes approaching sky high, a rabbit that abandoned her kits, a goat that got loose and screaming kids, I gave in and decided to make cookies.  The kids and I got out the ingredients, and let me tell you, it worked like magic.  Everyone seemed to get happy again, and right as I was devouring a nice warm plate with my fresh, raw milk, I got a phone call that the house was in fact going to close this week.  Perhaps the happiness that comes with just giving in and baking cookies with the kids can counteract anything bad.  Somehow, I didn’t even mind the typical blustery spring weather.  We combated the wind and rain by building a nice warm fire in the wood stove and devouring cookies.

Of course, I’m hoping that things get easier and my desire to communicate to the world at large increases.  Maybe I won’t have to carry so much on my mind.  Until then, I’ll be eating cookies and trying to enjoy the company of my two little people and my farm.