When Enough is Enough

Let me just state that the very worst time or year to get seriously into farming is the dead of winter.  We’ve been working toward having a working farm operation for the past several years.  When all the things started to align for us to move and make it happen, we were excited.  As the Farmer, I was intensely interested in many different projects, and I made the decision that I was going to start many projects off and see which ones we liked, which ones pay, etc.

It turns out that farming isn’t easy, and keeping livestock happy through winter is challenging, especially when I’m also trying to be a wife and a mother.  I started to feel like all areas of my life were suffering.  My small kids don’t like to be outside in uncomfortable weather, but that’s when the livestock need me the most.  The end result is that I leave the kids inside while I rush out to do my chores.  The chores ALWAYS takes longer than I plan because when I do make it out into the weather, I make absolutely sure that I do everything I need to do before returning back to the warm retreat of the house.  This usually results in dinner being late, my husband being hungry and a very grumpy household.  Everyone usually gets sorted out and sent off to bed while I head out to do yet more chores.

I immensely enjoy every part of my life.  I love my kids, I love my husband and I love my livestock, but this past week when the sheep got sheared and they were naked and looking a little thin, I started to think that maybe it was time to cut back.

Today, I got to chat with my very helpful, very knowledgeable and very supportive sister.  We talked about the tough questions, like what farming I like to do, what is too hard and what will pay the bills.  I realized that I really do like all the projects we have going on.  Milking cows and goats is my dream job.  I love being a dairy maid providing milk to local families and having a wide range of dairy products in my own home (milk, cream, butter, cheese, etc.).  The sheep, rabbits and the goats provide quality fiber to a known fiber junkie.  The excess fiber can be sold, and each of these animals can be harvested at market weight for the freezer.  That leaves me with the market animals we have going on, pigs and chickens.  Both of these projects are challenging, but they are the most worthwhile.

It then dawned on me that it’s not what I have going now that is the problem, it’s the ideas I have coming up around the future.  It takes TIME and ENERGY and MONEY to grow and expand.  Having property is like taking care of another entity, it is a living entity that grows and needs care and attention.  It is NOT something that can happen overnight or even over the course of a year.

It sounds like that to be successful I need to slow down, take a step back and enjoy what I’m working on now.  Even though it would be fun to start 10 more bee hives this winter or milk 6 more cows, it is expensive, and it takes a lot of time, work and energy.  Perhaps the smart thing would be to enjoy the projects we have going, get really good at them and then look at slowly expanding into new projects as the years roll on.  After all, I plan to live and farm this bit of land for the rest of my life.  If I work on and finish all the projects this year, what on earth am I going to work on for the rest of my time here?

I’m working on putting together a “master plan” for now and for the future so we know where we are going and how to get there.  However, I think the most important thing is that I take one day at a time and enjoy the sweet beauty that comes from working with the land and animals to create our Cast Iron Farm.

Viewpoint

Things really are starting to fall into a routine around here.  It is hard for me to believe that we’ve been living here for less than 6 months.  It seems like a lifetime, a GOOD lifetime.  It feels like we belong here, and believe me, we aren’t going anywhere anytime soon.  It would be a gross understatement to say that things have been a bit challenging at times.  There has been a huge adjustment to all the different things about having a farm, having big chores to do and having animals that need us, every day of the year.  I was no stranger to these things before, but we are now dealing with a MUCH larger scale.

This morning, I was out milking the cow, just like I do every other day, and I realized that your attitude and viewpoint really matter in any given situation.  I was milking, and as usual, the cat was slowly sneaking up closer and closer so that he could get any of the milk that missed the milk bucket.  On any other day, I find it a bit of an annoyance, and I shoo him off.  Today, I let him sit next to me, and I really started to enjoy his company.  As I was getting used to the idea of letting the cat stick around, a stray chicken strolled into the milking parlor and decided to hang out.

I went out to milk a week or so ago, and I found that this one chicken had decided she didn’t like the living quarters in the coop and that she much preferred sleeping in the straw in the milk parlor.  In truth, from her viewpoint, we are in HER way.  After all, she made up a nice little nest and here I come with a milk bucket and a 1000 pound animal standing in HER bed.  Did it deter her, no, she just walked under the legs of the cow right up to the nest she had made by the head of the cow, and sat down to enjoy the show.

It made me get to thinking that the way I take these little things really say a lot about me as a person.  Rather than fret that the chickens have discovered how to fly over the fence and that the cat is trying to steal my milk, I could admire the variety and the idiosyncracies that come with working with animals.  They do each have their own little personality.  It’s kind of like a farm version of stopping to smell the roses.

In fact, for a brief moment, I figured I was in heaven.  What more is there to the simple farm life than sitting on an old milking stool milking the cow while the stray chicken and the anxious cat supervise?  It is these individual personalities that make this farming thing so darn much fun.

Shearing the Sheep and Goats

Sheep are essentially field decorations except for two or thee times a year when you have to shear them, lamb them or harvest them.  Other than that, they’d much rather be left alone.

This year, all the ewes are bred, and they are out on pasture.  They had been shorn at odd times last year and one or two were actually shedding.  I called the shearer out to get the fleeces of the sheep and the goats in a way that would render them useful for spinning.

I have clippers, and I knew I was capable of shearing myself, but I had to do an emergency shearing of the ram back in October when he got caught in some blackberries, and though I did get a usable fleece off him, I could have done a much better job.  I figured that I would watch and learn and hopefully build up my confidence in my ability to do yet another thing around the farm.

Boy! What an experience!  The person doing the shearing was fairly new at it, so she was having trouble doing it.  I learned quickly the general idea of how to do it, and realized that I really was capable enough to do the task.  She was able to get the blanket (the back and side wool) off everyone intact, and I am now the proud owner of some very stunning fiber!

That said, shearing 10 animals took almost 8 hours, so it was a LONG drawn out process.

Happily, I have some amazingly beautiful raw wool now available.  I’m happy with the variety we ended up with.  I’ve got 4 gorgeous Shetland fleeces.  I got 2 Pygora fleeces and3 Angora (mohair) fleeces.  This is all on top of the rabbit fiber that came off the rabbits last week!

Ode de Skunk

There are certain charms to living in the country but there are also certain nuisances.  It’s really the small things.  As was the case tonight.

We are working on the demolition of our once wash house so that it can be renovated into Jared’s office, AKA the headquarters of Expansion Computers.  Jared has been busy lately, so I decided to start working on it to try to get it done for him by Valentines Day.  Over the past week I’ve been working on it with Daphne’s help and we are starting to see the light at the end of the demolition tunnel.  Tonight, I decided to burn the late night oil to get it done if possible.  I got the kids in bed, the cows milked and the house in a decent order before I headed out with my James Herriot audio book to get some serious work done.

As I was getting ready to finish up for the night, I stood bolt upright to the serious scent of freshly sprayed skunk!  Living in the city over the past several years, I’d really forgotten about skunk except for those freeway drive bys where an attempted road crossing failed–and lingered.

I searched my immediate area to see if the skunk had somehow entered the wash house, and it looked clear for that.  I made a lot of noise (as if the demolition I was previously doing was at a butterfly whisper) and went into the house where, I invited our rat terrier out to do his job.

Unfortunately, he was more interested in eating the cat food in the barn than helping protect me from skunk, so I had to make a solo round through the farm at 10 at night to assure myself that we weren’t being invaded by an army of skunks.

Yep, I’m scared of skunks.  It’s a good thing that I keep the company of three dogs who will protect me, right? Pugs can take on skunks, right?

Mistakes Were Made

It is so easy to start a new project and think of how much fun it is going to be or how easy it is going to be or even the profit margin it might make.  Yeah.  Farming never really turns out the way you plan.

I’ve raised batches of meat chickens every year for our family table.  It has been occasionally hard, especially when our “farm” used to consist of a 50 by 10 foot patch of grass.  I did it, and I was successful, and I only ever had lost one chicken.  Turns out that raising chickens for meat can be a dirty and a gross job.  The Cornish Cross breed of chicken is the breed that is used by 98% of all chicken farmers today.  They were bred 50 years ago to grow VERY fast and to produce insanely large breast meat.  The thing is that these chickens are walking stomachs, and they are drones.  They have no personalities and, unlike every other animal I’ve ever worked with, there is NOBODY home.  They are ugly, hungry and they have no will to live.  True, they are delicious and they grow fast, but I was looking for something a little more in the heritage department.

This past year, I was turned onto the Freedom Ranger, Le Poulet chickens.  They are a heritage breed of chicken bred in France as a meat bird.  They dress out nicely, they are incredibly delicious.  True, they take 16 weeks to grow out, but they have the will to live, and they are known for their foraging skills.

One day, when I was sitting next to my son waiting for him to fall asleep (as I am doing right now), I started planning for the farm.  The pigs are currently pastured on the section of pasture that is going to the the garden this year.  They have done a good job tearing it up and eating out the roots.  The soil is much richer than it was when I put them on that ground just 4 months ago.  I thought what a fantastic compliment it would be to raise a batch of meat chickens on that ground after the pig butcher but before it was time to start planting the garden, brilliant, right?  Well kind of.  By a stroke of luck, everything was starting to work out just fine.  The chickens managed to hatch out and be delivered the right week and we were off to a good start.  They were brooding nicely and eating up the Organic feed by the bagful.

One morning I went out to find a pile of dead chicks.  It looked like a massacre.   All told, there were 17 in the pile.  I was horrified, and I took precautions to stop it from happening again (I assumed it was a predator).  The next morning, nope, another 18 dead.  WHAT?  I quickly thought the feed was contaminated and I grabbed the tags from the last few bags and headed off to the extension service to get some help.  Then I saw it, the feed I had gotten the week before had been switched out.  Rather than giving me the Organic chick starter, I was given Organic Layer ration.  It has a very high amount of calcium, and, surprise, it kills chicks.  Well 39 dead chicks later, I had my solution.  Voila!  I took the feed away, replaced it with the correct feed, and the chicks are off growing again and not piling up in dead heaps.

What lesson did I learn?  Well, farming never turns out like you plan.  Yeah, I think it’s a lesson I’m going to have to learn over and over again.  I assume that with some more experience I will have less and less losses, but in one mistake, one little oversight, I lost a huge percentage of my chick population and all of my potential profits.  I’m not complaining, and I will carry on, but it just goes to show that you can never be too detailed in the way you manage your livestock.

Until then, I’m going to be grateful for my well fertilized garden space and the chicken meat that will soon be filling my personal freezer to bursting.

Free The Animals!

Life is never dull, that is for sure!

They started developing the road and the properties that are adjacent to our house.  This has resulted in a lot more people coming around our property.

One morning, I went out to milk, and I was startled when three fat pigs jumped out at my in the dark!  They weren’t in their pen.  I was baffled how it happened because both the gates were closed to the pig pen and there were no holes or breaks in or under the fence.  I put them in and chalked it up to weirdness.

Two days later, the pigs were out.  Jared and I managed to get them in and then they ran out the other gate.  Somehow, the back gate to the pen was open!  Jared and I were even more baffled.  Neither of us had opened the gate.  The kids can’t reach and there is no possible way the pigs could get up and pull up the latch that opens the gate to swing out.  I tried jiggling and shaking it and there is no way the pigs could have gotten it open.

Fast forward to the end of the week, and this has happened a total of four times.

My only conclusion at this point is that someone is coming up onto our property and opening the gates to our animals and “setting them free.”

It’s an interesting prank to be sure, maybe even funny once or twice,  Pigs cause a lot of trouble when they are loose, especially when they are reaching the 200 pound mark.  They got in and ate 50 dollars worth of chicken feed, they tore up the hay, etc.

I finally broke down and came to the conclusion that I need to file a police report and I went and spent a pretty penny on padlocks for all our gates and animal pens, but come on, REALLY!?!?

Life and Death

When people come out to the farm, it looks like so much fun.  Usually the sun is shining and all the animals are at their charming best.  I love to show people around and enjoy our beautiful farm.  Lots of people have that as the idea of what farming is like.  They don’t consider having to get up before the sun and go out to milk the cow in 16 degree weather.  Or having to go out and move several tons of hay to keep it from getting wet.  Or the devastation of when the pigs get out and find something to eat that they should not.  And especially, illness or the death of an animal is the furthest thing from anyone’s mind, even if the death is a purposeful harvest.

This past week, I had a 6 month old goat kid get injured to the point that it looked like he was not going to recover.  I made the hard decision that we were going to butcher him here on the farm.  The backlash that I got from this decision was quite surprising.  Almost everyone that heard about it had a shocked reaction as though I was doing something inhumane, vile and disgusting.  It surprises me over and over again that people react in this way.

I did the correct thing.  The goat was not going to recover, we put it down and we made use of the animal.  I do no like to waste life.  To me, that is the highest form of respect that I could give to an animal that is giving it’s life for me and my family.

This just shows the lack of connection that exists between the general population and their food.  Meat comes wrapped up in nice little packages at the grocery store.  Most people don’t even know that the meat was a living breathing animal.  Nor do they realize what part of the animal what they are buying comes from, much less which animal.

I assure you that an animal killed and processed on my property is killed as humanely and with as much respect as can be given.  I can also assure you that that is not the case in the big-time packing plants.  The meat we eat comes from animals that were once living and have given their lives to nourish us.

Death is an inevitable part of life for all of us.  As livestock farmers, death visits more frequently than some of us would like, but I for one spend a great deal of time ensuring that life is not wasted.

Grocery Store Ban

January starts a new year, and since it falls in the dead of winter, it gives me an awful lot of time to think about how I can challenge myself to grow.  I make it a point every year to sit down and find a way to come up with something special and exciting that I can do to improve myself or my world.  I think it is human nature for us to like the idea of a new year being a new start, a chance to right all our wrongs and move on in a better light.

This year, I was led in an unexpected direction.  I decided that I no longer want to depend on the grocery store for my source of food.  Yes, I could just decide to “only go to the store when I absolutely need it” but that is just the kind of wording that would have me a month later saying that of course the chocolate I so desperately want qualifies as necessary.

I decided that we were going to try banning visits to the grocery store for the month of January.  This also means no bakery, no Saturday market, no eating out, no outside food provisions allowed at all, period (ok, except for the CSA from our local organic vegetable farmers).

I considered the idea impossible and crazy until I really started to look at it and think about it, and it suddenly seemed to be an interesting and exciting challenge.  The effects have been very interesting and very positive so far.

Money- Our grocery food budget is one of the largest items in our family budget.  As a family of four, there is nothing wrong with that, but what if we could find a way to eat well and reduce our food costs at the same time.

Time- I usually go to the grocery store two times a week, that’s eight times a month.  Since I’m the primary care taker for our two children, that means I would have to bring the kids with me.  We’d have to buckle and unbuckle two kids from the car, fight over who goes where in the shopping cart, explain why we are not buying candy, stop the baby from stepping on the food, etc.  All of this is gone.  The time I used to spend fighting to shop, buy and bag our food is now time I’m spending doing a fun activity with the kids.

Eating down the pantry- I make a LOT of food from scratch, which means that we have a pretty considerable dry food storage.  In many cases, we have 25-50 pounds of different grains, beans etc.  These are the raw foods that start almost every meal.  A little bit goes a long way, and as I was looking at these foods, I was realizing that we could and should eat through our current stores  so that they can be replaced with the fresh beans and grains of the upcoming year.

Our freezer was full to the brim, even overflowing at the beginning of January.  There was home-grown chicken, rabbit, beef and venison (shot on our property).  I used to try to “save” the meat for a special time and it would never get eaten.  Now, we’ve been eating down our stores so that we can fill our freezer again with the upcoming animal harvests.

I also spent a considerable amount of time canning fruits and vegetables during the fall harvest.  The truth is that we have been happily eating like kings from the stores that we have.

Some people care a lot about buying organic, locally grown ingredients for their pantries.  I’ve realized that it is just a natural part of my life.  I’d venture to say that about 90% of the foods we are eating have been harvested within a 20 mile radius of my house.  Even more so, 80% of that food was either raised or picked and processed by the kids an I.

I must also say that having a cow in milk is also very helpful.  We are rolling in milk, cream, butter, cheese, whey, etc.  There is nothing like a bit of raw dairy product to add richness to a meal.

Being creative in the kitchen- This project has led me in some interesting directions in the kitchen.  Since I am not able to bring in new provisions, this has required me to make some thing I would never consider making.  I wanted to get around to using some of the miso we had in the fridge.  I started craving miso soup, but we didn’t have any tofu.  Rather that decide to try to make something else or do without, I got out my organic soybeans and my computer and I learned how to make tofu.  You know what, I am so proud of myself for doing it too.  That’s just the kind of growing I’ve been talking about.  I will never buy tofu again.

Being thankful- The month is quickly drawing to a close, it sounds like it has been easy.  Well, there have been some drawbacks.  I ran out of coca powder on about day 2, and well, you can imagine the torture that has been.  Jared is graciously living without raisins and we’ve got no honey in the house for my tea.  I also ran out of butter at some point and had to figure out how to live without until I could get the cream together to make more.  I do have a list of provisions that we need to stock up on eventually.

I’m learning to navigate around the little bumps along the way and to do without in some cases.  During the times that I find I am really missing something, I just consider myself lucky.  We live in country where we have what we need at our fingertips, and there is assistance if we are unfortunate enough to not be able to pay.  There are so many people in this world that do no have the same access to the beautiful foods that I get to cook and experience every day, and I’m just so darned thankful, that I think I just might make it the rest of the month without coca powder.

I hope that this little experiment makes me a better chef, mother, farmer and homesteader.  I’m more determined to produce more of the food products that our family needs.  I’m also resolved to buy the products that I can’t make myself from another farmer like me who cares, who has a relationship with their plants and animals and who puts my health over making a profit.  Win-Win-WIN!

A Goat Named Dot

I’ve been around dairy goats for quite a few years now.  Somehow, I’ve always ended up with Nubians.  They have their own special (loud) personalities, but I secretly coveted the small, sweet Nigerians I saw everyone had.  This fall, I got the opportunity to get some Nigerians that I could use as a test in our dairy.  Oh boy, what an adventure.  I’ll spare you the details of them breaking out of a chain link fence and eating all the rabbit food.  We had finally gotten everything to settle out–or so we thought.
I was out one day feeding the goats and the sheep.  I turned around, and there, in front of me, was my black Nigerian doe, Luna.  She had a Huge bag (udder).  This was a surprise to me because she wasn’t supposed to kid until late January.  Well, it didn’t surprise me when 4 days later I was out in the barn and I heard the cries of a newborn goat.  I ran out to see that Miss Luna had three little doelings running around demanding to be nursed.  One was black, one was white, and one was white-caramel.
The black little goat was smaller than the others, and kept being pushed out of the way when it was time to eat.  A day later, she was getting almost nothing to eat, and she was lethargic and no longer had the will to eat.  I scooped her up and brought her into the house where Daphne and I worked to get some food into her.  Slowly, slowly with lots of breaks for sleeping in the middle, she got a tummy full of milk.  I wrapped her up in a towel, put her in a box and carefully placed the box next to the wood stove for warmth.
That’s the story of how we got a house goat.  She lived in the house with us over the next week.  She went from not being able to stand to running and leaping and jumping and challenging our dog to battles.  Daphne even managed to potty train her.  She would take her outside and let her pee, and she never once peed in our house.  In his excitement, Cyprus started to refer to her as “Dot the Goat” and so we named her Dot.
I had a visitor over looking at buying some wethers that I had, and he inquired about Dot.  He had a little girl at home that would love a bottle goat, and he asked if I would consider selling her.  She was obviously going to a good home, and because of her runtyness, I had no intention of keeping her as breeding stock.  I agreed to let her go.
When Miss Daphne found out that I had sold her goat, boy did I hear about it!  I had to spend an entire morning comforting her and convincing her that there were others in the world that needed goats, and that she would be well taken care of.  So, when the man came to get precious little Dot, Daphne marched out of the house, handed her over, and slowly, with tears in her eyes, walked back to the house, sad.
When all was said and done, I was asked to always remember Dot because Daphne would always love her!  What a lucky little goat to have so much love!  Dot has a good home now, and Daphne has taken on the task of managing Dot’s sisters, Milly and Tilly.

Four Tons of Wet Hay

Life is full of choices.

Some choices are easy, most are hard. It’s impossible to forsee the consequences or benefits of what you choose. The only possibility is to make a choice, jump in with both feet and enjoy or tolerate the ride.

Yep, it was totally my idea to put the four tons of hay on the floor of the barn. It seemed like a good enough place to put it. It would be in a location that it could be used and it was nice and warm, inside, covered and dry. The person I bought it from even delivered it and stacked it for me, yep, right where I told him to. We’d had pallets laying around, but it was silly to try to use them they’d just be in the way. All it took was 6 inches of rain in a 24 hour period for me to learn that those pallets DID have a use and that the decision to put the hay in that exact location was a losing decision.

And so, rather than write off my losses, I had to set the worst example for my children and overreact. Rather than put them in their snug beds, I thought it would be good to drag them out into the barn in the rain and the cold so that we could milk the cow and “save the hay.” Of course, this just resulted in some grumpy kids and a grumpy mom that ended up yelling at the kids. So I failed to get the cows and the goats milked, I failed as a mom and we still didn’t save the hay. Was that a sign to give up, nope. I sent the kids off to bed and decided that I would single handedly move 4 tons of wet hay to another wet location in the barn. With tears in my eyes, determination in my heart and a single hay hook in my hand, I started off to do that. One and a half tons of hay later, I’ve dragged everything through the water and I’m tired as all heck. I dig the hay hook into a bale and haul with all my might to pull it off the stack. Instead of the bale moving, the hay hook tore out of the bale and I fell backwards off the stack of hay into 3 inches of soggy wet water. I lay there crying, wet, injured and sobered. It was only then that I realized that sometimes you just have to give up and walk away. Some things are just not worth it.

I grew up on a farm and farming always seemed easy and simple to me. My family had already had a generations’ experience in farming, so maybe that helped, but I remember life on the farm being plesant. I’m sure there were difficulties and that I was mostly protected from them, but it still seemed simple. Fast forward twenty years, and I was dreaming about having a place of my own. Funny how farming seems lovely and romantic until you are actually out there DOING it. In my daydreams, it was always a nice sunny 70 degrees, the sun was warm and there was plenty of green grass. Of course I seemed to skip the parts about frozen water buckets, flooded barns, lost crops or a sick animals. These are all hard things, and choosing the path to take when you encounter them is the key to success.

Even though I’ve been around farming my whole life, I’ve never been the one to call the shots. I was never at the helm making the decisions, I was always a crew mate happily spending time with the animals. It’s different now, and I’m finding the entire weight of decision making on my shoulders. It’s a lot different to call the shots and have to live with the consequences that those decisions bring about.

The rain is still coming down, and there is more expected tomorrow. I think the best thing to do at this point is to call the wet 1.5 tons of hay lost and try to make up the money to replace it somehwere else on the farm. It’s much easier to enjoy the rain as I listen to it in my bed intersperesed by the breaths of my sweet baby boy. Sometimes the right decision is to decide not to react, to keep a light heart and to walk away.

And though I’ve made this sound all difficult and tough, it is. That still doesn’t mean I’d rather be doing anything else. I face challenges every day, just like anyone else who is alive. I still couldn’t find anything more satisfying to spend my time on.

Goodnight for now.